It’s Sunday. Sunday, February 12th. Today my Sunday is straight from the heart and all in all, the truth. What’s the point if I’m not completely honest, right?

I absolutely love Sundays. They are the perfect day to regroup for a fresh week of routine and focus. This morning, my wonderful Sunday started off with class at Barre3 with my favorite person (mom) followed by breakfast with the whole family. After breakfast, my mom and I grocery store hopped to purchase all of our best finds for our day of cooking.

Now, you may be wondering why I am home, and honestly I’m wondering the same thing. I should 100% still be at school, but I have been missing home way too much. Sometimes you just need extra hugs to fill the heart. I wish that I could say I am crazy happy at school with a fabulous group of friends, but honestly I am not. My heart has been quite empty lately, as I am having a hard time this semester. A whole month home over Christmas break reminded me just how much I love {and MISS} my people and my place.

It is so hard to be studying at school while they are home and living life. The life I have lived at home has always been so independent, so I was not dying for the freedom or liberating feeling that college comes with. For me, I am much more intrigued by the life after college without frat parties and stupid nonsense. Trust me, I get it. It’s fun, but fun for like uhhh 3 quick minutes.

Right now, my prayers to God are for happiness within myself. I’m confident that after I feel good, I will be able to find a fun friend group that loves me for, well, me. The constant state of worry has overcome me for this perfect life that I am not living right now. This picture I had in my head of what everything would be like meeting the not-pictured reality is hard to accept. How do I be the best possible me? How can I show others that I truly do put them first? Am I actually giving back to God enough? Where is He taking me?

This life is the most fabulous gift we could honestly ever ask for, and I am forever grateful. There are one million and two things to be thankful for and just not enough time in the day to name each and every one of them. I understand this beautiful side of life, but at this very moment, I’m trying to find that silver lining. Of course it is there, but it is my job to go find it.

Amazing people are always put into your life at just the perfect times. Reflecting on previous experiences, these are the parts of life that God pulls through the most! My lifelong friends were hand placed in front of me all at different stages of life, but with impeccable timing. I’m trusting that these cycles that have led me here will only repeat itself for the rest of my life.

Through prayers and a positive attitude, my smile is shining bright. Today is Sunday. Sunday, February 12th. It sounds to me like the perfect day to end the weekend at home with an overflowing heart and one too many cookies at dessert.  I know that school is calling my name, and I’m ready to return with a focused attitude and acceptance that this is just life right now. But even when life is hard, there’s a way to make it fabulous.